There are so many thoughts running through my head that I can't seem to get straight.
I wonder what I should do about where I'm living. I know what would be sensible, but is it really the right thing to do, for my happiness' sake?
My feelings for Tori are real, but the problems I'm having reconciling our differences and the issues others are having with us. She is very mixed up, and is struggling with thoughts that will seriously harm her. It's heartbreaking and I wish there was something I could do to help her. Every day, I try to remind her how much she means to me. Her family love her (in their way) and she is so strong and so brave. She is beautiful, intelligent and so kind, but she can't see it. I'm terrified of losing her, but I'm at a loss.
This is uppermost in my mind, and I have no answers.
Everything else pales in comparison.
2 comments:
It sounds like how I felt when I was with someone we know, even though he wasn't so bad by then. Your heart will guide you but a little detachment can help in order to gain distance - a higher perspective of the best way to act.
Hope you're ok. Is anything more clear now? Really sorry for not checking this sooner, trying hard to make more time for you cos am worried about you, really wanna chat to you properly, I know you hate phones but it really would be good for you I think. I had to force myself to learn anyway. Mind you I do quite like writing rather than speaking sometimes, maybe it depends on the kind of thing we're trying to get across, or achieve. Lots of love xxx
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